Ill tell you what going to court for my son never gets any easier and trust me as a father its a hard thing to face. Because every time my son goes through this I have to speak to the judge or rather I get the final say of the decision. But because of that my son will have more discontent and be even more resentful. However, as a father I know what he needs and if something is for his own good you always do what is right. Because as a dad I am not my kids best friend but a father that teaches him survival, respect, morals, ethics and about life. We as dads are mere teachers to help our kids grow into good men and women someday.
His lawyer tried to get him out of jail today and I opted for the opposite. So my son I am sure will think its a big conspiracy that his probation officer and I cooked up. But he merely has to learn that sending out college statements about hurting others or bullying the teachers is not cool PERIOD! The judge told my son to knock the shit off and just simply behave. So far now his release will depend on his probation officer when he sees fit my son should come home and that is what I wanted because I have gone through so much shit with that boy here at home. Him sneaking out, stealing, lying, verbal abuse, threats, him never helping me out or taking care of his pets. Then the getting f’s at school to sneak out with the gf and the constant getting in trouble at school I have had folks nothing but a full plate. So at this time ill relish him being away for awhile so I can get a piece of mind and reflect about the hell he has put me through this past year!
Sorry not trying to be a downer I really am not upset or mad but I do experience pain emotionally from things whether that is what has gone on with my son to other things I see in society that eat away at me. I am not a heartless soul believe me. I have great love for children, animals and especially women that is just who I am. But first and foremost ill always be a father I still want to experience having a child or children again though. My older son is moved out, my stepson was brainwashed by my crazy ex and my youngest is just on a bad path which I am doing everything I can to help him and change that. In the long run everything I do he will benefit from and there is a good chance he will end up in placement for six months so believe me I have my fair share of hurt.
Yesterday I met with a group of friends from our class and when I thought he had it bad I was shocked by what he told me about his daughter. Their are so many troubled teens and really we cant blame most of the parents. Most of the time this is attributed to what these kids see on social media and the public schools. I mean some of the teachers at my sons school did some dumb stuff showing things to kids they should not have like videos of shit etc. Its just a different generation back when I was a kid all we wanted to do was work, save up for a car, play metallica and get our own place. We were not doing drugs, fucking, disrespecting our parents and we certainly had responsibilities like chores! Times have changed hell some 16 years old drive shit better then what I drive I mean serious whatever happened to a kid owning a clunker or beat up car lol.
Well enough of that I had my pain management this morning as some of you could tell based on my instagram and facebook post lol. Sometimes I like to goof off to pass time what can I say. The doctor says what is with the ugly hat I said excuse me? I am wearing a Bills camo beanie he just did not look at it at first then was like oh then starts bragging about the New England Patriots I swear that doctor is fucking nuts every time I see him its always something just like once he asked me if I was going to shoot up his doctors office WTF! Anyhow, despite the charades It was a nice drive up to Reno this morning there are storm clouds all above the peaks of the sierras and its overcast. Its been showering on and off if it stays this way tomorrow morning that rain on the mountains will change to snow and then ill have some nice snow covered peaks to enjoy while out at yard sales this weekend. I need to find some auto stuff this weekend like brake fluid, oil, radiator fluid etc so that is my plan at least. Its for the jeep which you guys use to see tons of photos of it and me a couple years ago. Yes we still own it!
Tammy last night made me chocolate covered pretzels god they are so addictive mmmm chocolate drives me crazy more then even sex what can I say lol. Last night after hanging with my friends I came home made Tilapia fillets smothered on wild long grain rice with limes. I like to season things differently so I used Chesapeake bay and blackening seasons. It came out super amazing and a little crispy on the edges. One of my best fish dinners I ever made lol. While eating dinner I watched The Gifted and the season finale of The Outpost. I hope that The Outpost comes back next year I enjoy those medieval monster sword clashing types of series. I love the gifted to actually I like that little blonde I see her in all sorts of films now but what a body on her. I am a huge Xmen fan so I love this series its an interesting little spinoff which was canceled then brought back so I am enjoying it so far. Soon though I get to go seen the new Halloween I cant freaking wait its going to be bad ass!
I guess I should go put on a pot of Kona Coffee then eat my lunch enjoy these eerie skies. Its warm out just cloudy with sprinkles on and off. I fed my hens a loaf of bread this morning too. Its really a nice day but man mornings are brrrrr here. I had to head out to Reno then come home eat a banana and do a few things here then to court. Now I am home chilling but I may string up the Halloween lights I just need to go get my ladder to get them strung which is quite the task so time to fuel up. I need my coffee, bud and a little luck lol. Depends also on if it starts to rain its dark as hell out. I can rest a bit also because my son has a doctors appointment today so I am suppose to meet up there today he will be in custody of his po and not just today but tomorrow is another appointment. So it wont be easy seeing one another in a few hours because I am sure he is pissed that this time around I did not bail his ass out.
Anyhow I have my green bong out going to smoke put on that coffee and ill be here for a few stringing lights. Seems like nobody ever wants to hang out or talk to me not sure why I even come on here anymore but I do. I have high hopes some of my friends someday will actually be my friend not just say they are. True friends are so hard to come by! I will be around though tonight is Always Sunny In Philadelphia man that is a funny show so some comedy should cheer me up as I have a soup and a salad. I got so much planned this month but the first step is finishing the decorating that is if my cat will stop knocking it all over. That black kitty gets into everything he broke a Halloween sign this morning that I now have to glue back together in a moment lol. Grrrrrr! Anyhow I had time to reflect and I want to become mayor of this city I have friends here that will help me campaign and if I could win I could start politically with that then maybe think about even senator or governor down the road of Nevada. Alright everyone I am just thinking out loud hope everyone has a awesome day.
